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Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
9:28 am
I am now officially the luckiest guy in the world - Mandy and I bought our dream cottage and tonight we are moving in there together. Life doesn't get any better than this!

[private to Mandy]
I owled Professor Dumbledore and I shall owl Professor Snape.

I love you, baby!
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
1:48 pm
[private, hexed against all but Mandy]
I've finally taken a stand, made a decision which will affect not only me but Mandy and our whole future together - I refuse to be a Death Eater any more!

I didn't make this decision lightly, nor come to it by any easy means. But having reached it, I feel that it is the right choice, the only choice that I could make.

I talked to Professor Snape about it. He warned me that it wouldn't be easy. Of course not, that's a given. And that the only way to enlist Professor Dumbledore's aid in my cause is to spy for him against them, which in itself will be a most dangerous thankless thing to do.

But I shall do it, that's all there is to it. I've seen things in the past few years which I can't even bear to think about, horrible things, and I can't do it any more. I want to make a life with Mandy, make up to her for the damnfool I left her in the lurch before, let her slip between my fingers. Broke her heart, dammit!

I'm lucky she even talks to me again, much less cares about me. But I have been blessed with having managed somehow, through some sort of blind dumb luck, to retain her love, and I'll do everything in my power this time to make sure that I don't fail her. No matter what it takes.

Professor Snape is going to teach me the ropes.

The hardest part, I think, is that I can't tell Chad. My closest friend, other than Mandy. I've told him everything since we were just squirts. But at least for now I can't. It won't be easy, pretending. Snape told me that being a spy is a thankless job. I guess I'll find out just how thankless.

Chad, mate, please understand.

Maybe I can help get him out of that life. But I'm not sure that he wants to be rescued. We'll see.
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
11:14 am
[private, hexed against all but Mandy]
There is something preying on my mind, something I can't stop thinking about. It fills my mind night and day, and it's tearing me up inside. I don't mean Mandy, either, although she is on my mind constantly as well, but in a good way, not bad. The other is simply bad.

I know in my heart what I want to do. I don't want to be a Death Eater any more, it isn't the life that I wish to pursue. I have seen things, terrible things, too terrible to think about. And I don't want to see any more. Let me just say that it isn't right, and leave it like that.

But this isn't a social club where you can turn in your membership and be done with it. I can't walk up to Lucius Malfoy and say, pardon me, I quit, here's my resignation. It can't possibly be that easy.

How many ex-death eaters have you ever heard about? Me either.

I know that Mandy has promised to help me. She is the biggest part of why I am doing this - because I love her and I want to make a life with her, a real life, not the sham one that some insist on leading. I honestly love her and want to be with her forever.

I just wish I knew who to ask for advice.

Professor Dumbledore? Professor Snape? I just don't know.

[private to Mandy]
I love you, Mandy, very much. I promise you that I will never leave you again. I'm not that same young idiot, any more.
I would fight a real duel to keep your heart, any time.
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